Now where to start? Because I feel like I need to pick up where I left off.
It feels like I have to begin somewhere here, provide some sort of transition from the last post to this new one. Define the new direction that I want this blog to take. But where to start? And what to say? How much to tell? Those are always the big questions. And my OC self tells me I should at least establish some sense of order in this post, in the flow of things here... Give this place some sort of a smooth transition.
So here I am, attempting to continue what I've started.
Well, let me start by stating a few basic facts.
I am a writer. By profession, I've been working for an internet retail company since 2006 - writing copies for online audience, editing and proofreading articles before these are published on the web, and handling a group of writers. By hobby, I write fiction (or used to, and plan to do it again). Writing is my passion. My greatest dream. My ultimate purpose, even.
I live in the city, the big capital, though I do not consider myself a city girl. By heart, I will always be a province girl, a lover of nature, of silence, of solitude, of the slow and idyllic life. I have dreamed of conquering the city, of living in its fast beat, and at times I feel like I get it. Most of the time, though, I don't. After going through its crazy rhythm, I would long for the peace that my personal space provides. Living in the city - it can get tiring, even draining.
People? The one I love most in this world is my grandma. She was my mother as I was growing up, and most of my happy memories are memories with her. Then there's my sister. We don't have a lot in common, but she's one of the most sensible people that I know (sometimes, too sensible to the point of being harsh and heartless). I love her with a kind of love that doesn't need language. And then I have a girlfriend who I love so much. We work in the same office, and she's the closest I have to a family here in the city.
People in general... I'm no expert when it comes to human beings and human relationships. I'd even go as far as say that this area is my weakness. People are just so much complicated, and I don't have a lot of patience when it comes to this kind of complexity. I have no skill for small talk, and I think this has made me come off as snob and aloof. This used to bother me, but I've gone past that stage now and I don't really care anymore. I have a few friends, but most people I just leave alone to themselves. I don't have the skill for loving so many people at the same time. I believe in loving only a few but loving them with all my heart.
My values.Well, I believe in honesty and justice.
I have the tendency to be an idealist, and it can be both a good and a bad thing, depending on the circumstances.
I deeply believe and trust in the intrinsic goodness of man. Some people think me naive because of this, but I don't really care.
I believe that most of the problems of people are caused by miscommunication and misunderstanding, that we can hurt others despite our purest intentions because we sometimes lack the skill to express the deepest utterances of our heart and convert them into action.
I believe in revenge, though I also believe in forgiveness (I cannot forgive easily, though. I still don't have that kind of discipline in me).
I believe that some emotional scars can take a lifetime to heal, so it is only understandable if the people we hurt will never want to have anything to do with us again.
I believe in kindness, in the power of a smile, an encouraging word.
Second chances? Not really. Sometimes, all we really have is one shot, so we give our best because after that, there is nothing more.
I think I could go on and on, but let me end it here.
Cheers to 2013!
It feels like I have to begin somewhere here, provide some sort of transition from the last post to this new one. Define the new direction that I want this blog to take. But where to start? And what to say? How much to tell? Those are always the big questions. And my OC self tells me I should at least establish some sense of order in this post, in the flow of things here... Give this place some sort of a smooth transition.
So here I am, attempting to continue what I've started.
Well, let me start by stating a few basic facts.
I am a writer. By profession, I've been working for an internet retail company since 2006 - writing copies for online audience, editing and proofreading articles before these are published on the web, and handling a group of writers. By hobby, I write fiction (or used to, and plan to do it again). Writing is my passion. My greatest dream. My ultimate purpose, even.
I live in the city, the big capital, though I do not consider myself a city girl. By heart, I will always be a province girl, a lover of nature, of silence, of solitude, of the slow and idyllic life. I have dreamed of conquering the city, of living in its fast beat, and at times I feel like I get it. Most of the time, though, I don't. After going through its crazy rhythm, I would long for the peace that my personal space provides. Living in the city - it can get tiring, even draining.
People? The one I love most in this world is my grandma. She was my mother as I was growing up, and most of my happy memories are memories with her. Then there's my sister. We don't have a lot in common, but she's one of the most sensible people that I know (sometimes, too sensible to the point of being harsh and heartless). I love her with a kind of love that doesn't need language. And then I have a girlfriend who I love so much. We work in the same office, and she's the closest I have to a family here in the city.
People in general... I'm no expert when it comes to human beings and human relationships. I'd even go as far as say that this area is my weakness. People are just so much complicated, and I don't have a lot of patience when it comes to this kind of complexity. I have no skill for small talk, and I think this has made me come off as snob and aloof. This used to bother me, but I've gone past that stage now and I don't really care anymore. I have a few friends, but most people I just leave alone to themselves. I don't have the skill for loving so many people at the same time. I believe in loving only a few but loving them with all my heart.
My values.Well, I believe in honesty and justice.
I have the tendency to be an idealist, and it can be both a good and a bad thing, depending on the circumstances.
I deeply believe and trust in the intrinsic goodness of man. Some people think me naive because of this, but I don't really care.
I believe that most of the problems of people are caused by miscommunication and misunderstanding, that we can hurt others despite our purest intentions because we sometimes lack the skill to express the deepest utterances of our heart and convert them into action.
I believe in revenge, though I also believe in forgiveness (I cannot forgive easily, though. I still don't have that kind of discipline in me).
I believe that some emotional scars can take a lifetime to heal, so it is only understandable if the people we hurt will never want to have anything to do with us again.
I believe in kindness, in the power of a smile, an encouraging word.
Second chances? Not really. Sometimes, all we really have is one shot, so we give our best because after that, there is nothing more.
I think I could go on and on, but let me end it here.
Cheers to 2013!
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