On Self-Awareness.

It can be a blessing, and it can be a curse.

They say it's the first step towards success, towards improving one's self. But much as self awareness can bring one to the realization of his fullest potential, it also opens one to his own demons... Which is supposed to be a good thing, I think, because it's the only way to learn how to tame them. After all, no one can do that except one's self. In the process, however, one is also being constantly plagued by these demons. 

In every little act there is malice. From every little thought, even the most innocent one, can spring the darkest of desires - things that one can fail to control. One can suppress them, maybe, but suppression doesn't make them go away. In fact, suppression can even make them stronger - until one feels the only way to be free of them is to release them. But release can cause destruction, so one chooses to suppress them, contain them, tame them.

The act can make one lose his mind, now and then, and he gives in to despair. The only way out of this is to make peace with one's demons. Acceptance? No, that doesn't work, because it only strengthens the evil in one's self. Maybe the way is to turn to the light, to find a light bright enough to drive the demons away. Because one can't kill them by force - they have to go away on their own.