It's Okay To Be Weak.

It's okay to let go. 

It's okay to admit that we can't do it alone every time. 

It's okay to depend on others once in a while. 

It's okay to allow others to take care of us now and then.

I used to have a hard time dealing with this, because I'm really not comfortable asking for help. I'm not good at asking for favors. I don't want to bother people, and I don't want to cause inconvenience to anybody. I also hate the feeling of being indebted to people... Yes, I'm not good at receiving. I have no problem giving, but I have a hard time receiving. I still need a lot of practice to be a graceful receiver.

I have to admit, though, that it can be hard. Not only because of the fact that I really can't do everything on my own, but also because I seem to send out a message to people that I don't need them in my life - I can take care of myself, thank you very much. I've experienced this many times in the past, that I seem to intimidate people and close the door to them, and so they just walk away.

This comes to mind now because right now, I'm actually in a situation in which I need help. I've been physically sick since yesterday, not sure what the problem is but I don't feel well. And yeah, ordinary days, I would simply ignore this, not tell anybody that I'm sick and that I probably need their help.

This time, though, I've allowed myself to let go for a while and to allow others to take care of me. And yeah, it feels good. It was a blessing. And I'm greatly thankful to my friend who looked after me and comforted me at the office while I was sick, and to my housemates who are continuously taking care of me now.

Thank you, Lord, for sending angels my way.

P.S.

I realize now, that by allowing myself to depend on others, I also give others the chance to help. I do not only do something good for myself, but I also do something good for them. I'm not only helping myself; I'm also helping them.

THANK YOU! :)